Well that all sounds scary and somewhat familiar. I'm a new reader so I'll go back and start from the beginning, but it sounds like mental illness and pills? What a combo. What a life, for all of you. Reading this made me think of a time in my life, well, one of the many times in my life, when I was in individual therapy after my divorce and reminded me of the therapists who helped me through. Carol was the one that stuck with me the most, and I "graduated" out after two years or so. I loved Carol. I'm also writing a memoir so I really appreciate reading another woman who is also sharing her story in her own words.
Thank you. And, welcome to my messy but very honest story. There is a “start here” tab, if you are interested in sharing the journey with me. I’m glad to hear your therapist was helpful. Mine was, to a point….but, looking back, she kept me in the story for far too long. That part will unfold in a later moment. And, yes, memoir work is hard, rewarding and incredibly cathartic in moments. It’s all of it. Some chapters write themselves and others still leave me a wreck.
Ah, yeah, it’s so strange to see things from a distance.
Even with all the journaling I’ve done in my lifetime and the years of therapy, I have never experienced processing on this level. I’ve also never taken such good care of myself. I stopped writing to lay down and cry while writing one of my chapters, then after about 30 minutes I got up and started writing again. I’d never done that before. Truly incredible and life changing this writing thing. :) I’m looking forward to starting your story at the beginning.
I hear you. Yesterday was a whole emotional day and do you know why? What started it? I watched a show. That’s it. I watched a show on tv. I never even turn on the tv anymore, and, next thing you know….im 5 episodes in, crying, reliving my own experiences while watching…..and it lasted almost 24 hours. But….then I wrote. Furiously. It did bring me a place of being able to get back into my own life and get it out. It’s a crazy crazy ride sometimes.
WOW! Guess a little unexpected muse can really knock some things loose! Good to know, I’ll file this away for when I’m further along. Or maybe later this week. Hahaha. Whatever works is the way to go.
Rachael, I'm truly sorry you’re going through this. My heart goes out to your little ones and to you. I hope we find out more soon. In the meantime, please feel free to DM me whenever you need to talk.
Thank you. I’m good. I promise. This all unfolded in 2019, so, I’m no longer in the thick of it. Hard memories, but, also very therapeutic to be able to now witness it as it truly was and know that it all had to happen for me to wake up inside of my own life. I’m actually grateful that it happened. I may have slept thru my whole life had this not jolted me awake.
This is the first chapter I read and this view point is quite captivating
Well that all sounds scary and somewhat familiar. I'm a new reader so I'll go back and start from the beginning, but it sounds like mental illness and pills? What a combo. What a life, for all of you. Reading this made me think of a time in my life, well, one of the many times in my life, when I was in individual therapy after my divorce and reminded me of the therapists who helped me through. Carol was the one that stuck with me the most, and I "graduated" out after two years or so. I loved Carol. I'm also writing a memoir so I really appreciate reading another woman who is also sharing her story in her own words.
Thank you. And, welcome to my messy but very honest story. There is a “start here” tab, if you are interested in sharing the journey with me. I’m glad to hear your therapist was helpful. Mine was, to a point….but, looking back, she kept me in the story for far too long. That part will unfold in a later moment. And, yes, memoir work is hard, rewarding and incredibly cathartic in moments. It’s all of it. Some chapters write themselves and others still leave me a wreck.
Ah, yeah, it’s so strange to see things from a distance.
Even with all the journaling I’ve done in my lifetime and the years of therapy, I have never experienced processing on this level. I’ve also never taken such good care of myself. I stopped writing to lay down and cry while writing one of my chapters, then after about 30 minutes I got up and started writing again. I’d never done that before. Truly incredible and life changing this writing thing. :) I’m looking forward to starting your story at the beginning.
I hear you. Yesterday was a whole emotional day and do you know why? What started it? I watched a show. That’s it. I watched a show on tv. I never even turn on the tv anymore, and, next thing you know….im 5 episodes in, crying, reliving my own experiences while watching…..and it lasted almost 24 hours. But….then I wrote. Furiously. It did bring me a place of being able to get back into my own life and get it out. It’s a crazy crazy ride sometimes.
WOW! Guess a little unexpected muse can really knock some things loose! Good to know, I’ll file this away for when I’m further along. Or maybe later this week. Hahaha. Whatever works is the way to go.
That's why you're such a talented writer: you make it feel like it's happening in the moment.
Ha. I do try really hard to make it feel like the reader is with me. I’m glad it lands that way. I never know if I’ve achieved that or not. ❤️
Rachael, I'm truly sorry you’re going through this. My heart goes out to your little ones and to you. I hope we find out more soon. In the meantime, please feel free to DM me whenever you need to talk.
Thank you. I’m good. I promise. This all unfolded in 2019, so, I’m no longer in the thick of it. Hard memories, but, also very therapeutic to be able to now witness it as it truly was and know that it all had to happen for me to wake up inside of my own life. I’m actually grateful that it happened. I may have slept thru my whole life had this not jolted me awake.
Wow! I’m so sorry for what you have been through! I am hopeful that your boys are good! I look forward to what’s next!